Obviously, PNES is not all I have. I have a various number of other medical conditions, and I have to get checked up on those, too. However, it’s like PNES intensifies everything.
I may or may not have Endometriosis, which is a condition that causes painful periods, but can only be officially diagnosed by surgery, which I have not opted to have yet. There’s no real treatment other than being on birth control and controlling the pain, so the surgery is an unnecessary procedure right now.
Anyway, my periods are AWFUL. I’m on Vicodin the first three days of my period, because they are so painful. Well, the pain has been getting worse and worse, so my doctor decided to order an ultrasound to see if I had anything growing in the walls or any kind of mass in my uterus.
Okay, fine, I can do an ultrasound. Then I find out I have to drink a bunch of water and NOT PEE at all until it’s over…. sigh, okay FINE.
So today was the appointment, and I went in dancing the famous pee dance while waiting for the tech to come and get me. I go in and the ultrasound lasted 2 minutes and she says I can go pee now, but there’s a part two to the procedure. Okay, I just wanted relief so I rush to the bathroom. Ah, relief.
Then I go back inside the room and she tells me the second part is a transvaginal ultrasound.
SCREEEEEEEEEEEECH. I’m sorry, what?
Nobody told me about this part! They’re supposed to warn you! My doctor never mentioned this part! And it’s funny because I’m in a state that’s forcing pregnant women who want to abort to have this procedure, and it’s this huge controversial battle over it. Now, I’m not pregnant, so it wasn’t for that reason, but it still felt like a violation of my privacy. I was not mentally prepared for it. So my vote is a HELL, NO, on that part of the bill. Just saying.
It was unexpected, and as we all know, unexpected things cause ANXIETY. Sigh. It doesn’t seem like a big deal, but to me, it was a very big deal. So I of course sent a message to my doctor flipping out on her, because they’re supposed to warn you about the procedure beforehand, which I never was. The tech doing it was very surprised that I wasn’t told about this part, so she was very nice about it and explained why this part of the procedure was necessary, and what they hope to see as a result of the procedure. Okay, so I felt a little better, but I still didn’t like it.
So I went home and had cookies and stared at cute kitten and puppy pictures to cheer myself up. I might get upstairs and play the keyboard, but I have a lot of other stuff to do today. Yay, life.
Guest Writer Jay Bee