A lot of my anxiety and stress comes from not hearing very well. I read lips and wearing hearing aids. I don’t use sign language. So you can imagine in situations like a restaurant or a big social gathering, I’ve got a big question mark over my head most of the time. One on one, I’m fine. I still miss some things. I can’t use the phone though. I used to, then I lost a little more hearing (no idea why), and the phone became impossible.
For the longest time, audiologists have tried to sell me on the Cochlear Implant. I refused. No way, no how. I didn’t like the idea of destroying the hearing I did have left.
But now, things have advanced, and I guess there’s a way to avoid destroying the hearing you have left if you go to the right doctors. I’ve just started my research, so I’m not sure how true this is.
I don’t like the idea of losing my natural hearing. Is it going to sound different? Am I going to miss my hearing?
All these questions makes me think I’m not ready yet.
But it sure would be nice to stop saying, “What?”, every other sentence.